Dear younger Zati,
It’s rough being 17 for a meek girl like yourself. You’ve always have felt it. That it’s quite hard to gel in with kids your age.
At the time you didn’t know; it was just the way you are. You took time to warm up to new people and that’s perfectly fine! You were afterall created to be at ease with your own company most of the time.
It does made you question things like whether you are quirky, out of touch with the world or plain not lovable to the general public.
Truth is, over the years you are actually an acquired taste kind of person. Not everyone will love you or enjoy your company and that’s really OK.
Fortunately, you are actually blessed with family and a close circle of friends who truly matters. So, the endless worrying was wasted on nothing 😂
You’ll learn that the heart is a strong yet fragile creature. You’ll get heartbreaks….. A LOT. Eventually, you’ll be such a pessimistic bug and always feeling like to throw in the towel early.
Yes, at 29, you still haven’t quite meet your better half. And still trying to have a little more faith when it comes to love.
And Sorry, I couldn’t materialise a wedding by 27. But, you’ll learn that as much as you plan out your life, it will pan out differently and more interesting than what you’ve expected.
I say, take it as God’s way to push you to the edge and make you define yourself.
It’s all cool to settle down with a man – but it is way cooler to be at peace with yourself first before everything else in this world combined.
It is just like how John said in a song
And this is not to say
There’ll never comes a day
I’ll take my chances and start again
And when I look behind
On all my younger times
I have to thank the wrongs
That’ve lead me to a love so strong
-perfectly lonely, john mayer-
Worry Less, Live More.